It's like a tidal wave has washed me away and I can't seem to control what direction I'm going in.forward would be ideal but.I'm lost in the endless blue I know what I want,I know what I need but it feels like I'm trying to twist steal to bend myself and my life into what I need it to be.is this place I imagine for myself and my kids even a reality? Is there such a place where we can just be free? Free to run, free to jump, free to be ourselves and have no one judging us or oppressing us; we don't want to fall deeper and deaper into the ocean.We want change,we want love,exception,peace and enlightenment.The compass is spinning two times clockwise one time counter clockwise.is it left? Is it right? Should I go straight? Maybe if I stand still the answer will be more clear but how to see clearly as the waves keep pushing on? Creating more confusion.It is murkier than ever now and I only know what my instincts tell me to do and that's to keep pushing up; which ever direction up is only time will tell.I wonder how my hour glass is fairing these waves. Right now I could be blue faced but I'm not so I guess I'm doing ok.more to be grateful for then some people.
